Alchemy Flower Shop

One of my favorite projects from Interior Design school was probably the retail project at the very end of the program. We studied residential design for the first year, and tackled commercial design in the second year. When I was 15 my very first job was in a flower shop and I adored it. When I first started, I didn’t think of it any more than a job to make money and save for my future little green VW Buggy – but the longer I worked there and the more I learned about floral design, I saw myself becoming a florist professionally more and more! Now that I’m in Interior Design, I though it’d be ultra cool to design my own future flower shop! I have always loved the word “Alchemy” I don’t really know why… I like the shape my mouth makes when I say it and I enjoy hearing that word… it’s weird.

Alchemy [al•kuh•mee]

“A form of Renaissance chemistry concerned primarily on discovering a universal solvent and Elixir of Life. Or a magical process of transforming common forms into things of great value.”

My inspiration for my future flower shop was old English castles, waterfalls and redwood tree forests. I loved how these three things seemed to create the settling for a fairy tale! Essentially, I wanted Alchemy Florists to be a flower shop inspired by Mother Nature; bringing elements from the garden like fresh plants and running water, rough woods and a bright sky into the store. My goal would be to create a way to make floral arrangements a part of everyday life as well as make special events unique and brilliant. With the design of the flower shop, I  wanted to blur the lines between indoor and outdoor; allowing people to enjoy flowers and plants all year round! This is totally real dream of mine – I don’t know if I’ll ever achieve it, but who knows where life may take me.

img_0006Our assignment was to design a mall location store. The rest was only limited by our imagination. I was ecstatic! As my profs went through the requirements, guidelines and design rules I was already sketching my ideas down hoping to put them on paper before they got away! As soon as class ended, I felt like I was a racehorse bursting out of the gate – God was giving me so much inspiration! I thought this would be a fun project, also because I worked in a couple flower shops for several years. I knew things that worked, I remembered things that definitely did not work and there were design ideas I thought would’ve made work more efficient or practical – I was looking forward to developing, eliminating and creating a potential flower shop for myself in the future.

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Getting a floor plan down was the first step and envisioning what shoppers might see on the exterior.

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It was all coming together! I wanted the logo to be simple and organic.

alchemy-florists-logoAs part of the project we had to compile a complete specification sheet for our store including all of the materials and finishes, budget, floor Auto-CAD (ACAD) plans, electrical ACAD plans, + structural ACAD plans. There was a lot of work, but this was fun for me because I was a job that I related to and would want to work in myself! Below would be the exterior of the mall shop – it would be located on the corner which would allow shoppers to access from the side as well as the front. Along the hallway, there would be a window for convenient window shopping of fresh flowers and arrangements in the cooler.

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The ceiling of the flower shop, consists of LED light panels with a sky image. These lights would cast a soft glow through out the entire store to make it feel as it the shop was actually located outdoors. The suspended ceiling would have a pergola grid to hide the metal grid support system, which would enhance the indoor-outdoor experience.

alchemy-florist-4eIn the center of Alchemy Florists would be a fresh plant wall. The pillar would support plant life in the store without maintenance. The pillar offers privacy to the consultation and work areas in the back from shoppers passing by.

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The view of the front desk for floral wrapping, A water feature continues the indoor-outdoor experience and allows shoppers to hear the sound of running water as they walk past Alchemy Florists.

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A walk-in cooler allows shoppers to go in and pick the arrangement they want. Each floral design would sit on a stone Lazy-Susan which would allow them to view 360 degrees of the arrangement without needing to handle it. There would also be plants, gifts, and vases for shoppers to add to their order.

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Standing behind the front desk looking out into the flower shop.

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The consultation space for clients to meet one on one with the floral designers for custom work.

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The work center in the back. A large island with space to walk all the way around and full of storage areas underneath.

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The front shelf doubles as a storage shelf in the back to hold standard vases and designing materials. A large sink provides easy clean up and watering.

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The extra deep counters around the island provide practical work space for designers’ fresh flowers, cutting knives, floral waste, and finished design work.

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I really enjoyed this project! It took 100+ hours of design research, concept building, product searching, 3D computer modeling, Auto CAD drawings and photo shop to put the dream together but it was well worth it in the end! Maybe one day it will become real life!

 

 

 

 

-Stay Satisfied

Dents in my Fender + Rips in My Jeans…

Growing up, one of my favorite songs was, “Free to be Me” by Francesca Battistelli. She was my first concert. I remember my tween self freaking out when the first chords were played to hit single. I died:

 

At twenty years of age
I’m still looking for a dream
A war’s already waged
For my destiny
But you’ve already won the battle
And you’ve got great plans for me
Though I can’t always see

‘Cause I got a couple dents in my fender
Got a couple rips in my jeans
Try to fit the pieces together
But perfection is my enemy
On my own I’m so clumsy
But on your shoulders I can see
I’m free to be me

When I was just a girl
I thought I had it figured out
My life would turn out right
And I’d make it here somehow
But things don’t always come that easy
And sometimes I would doubt

‘Cause I got a couple dents in my fender
Got a couple rips in my jeans
Try to fit the pieces together
But perfection is my enemy
On my own I’m so clumsy
But on your shoulders I can see
I’m free to be me

And you’re free to be you

Sometimes I believe
That I can do anything
Yet other times I think
I’ve got nothing good to bring
But you look at my heart and you tell me
That I’ve got all you seek
And it’s easy to believe
Even though

‘Cause I got a couple dents in my fender
Got a couple rips in my jeans
Try to fit the pieces together
But perfection is my enemy
On my own I’m so clumsy
But on your shoulders I can see
I’m free to be me

 

 

Rips and dentsTo be honest, I think most of us thought we had it all figured out growing up; when we’re grown up I’ll be a firefighter or mechanic, I’m gunna have kids and be a Mom, we’re gunna do what we love and always assume success will follow us no matter where we go. I just turned 22 the other day, and as crazy as it may seem, I’m not a millionaire doing super, awesome things on T.V. I know, crazy right? I’m also guessing you’re not in that place either…. but that’s just a guess… Social media has a funny way of making us feel disappointed with our lives. It seems like everyone around us is dating, getting married, having kids, going on vacations, finishing school, getting promoted at work, buying a new car, building a new house, the list could honestly go on forever. Whatever we desire – someone else has. Our friends around us and the people we follow on social media platforms always seem to have their life together. Comparison is the #1 thief of joy people. Fransesca’s song always encouraged me that I was never meant to be perfect. God does not expect me to be flawless. The reason we can’t be perfect and flawless is because that would mean we don’t need Jesus. Even with Jesus, I am not perfect. But because of Jesus I know I don’t have to have my life together. With Jesus I can embrace my ripped jeans and dented car. I can embrace my current jobless situation. Believe me – I may only be in my early twenties, but I’ve had my fair share of struggles, disappointments, failures and heartbreaks. I scrolled across a quote the other day that challenged, “So what? You had a bad semester. You gained some weight. So what? You’re single again. You lost your job. So what? What now? You live. You try again. You move on. That’s what.” It struck a chord with me. We are told in 2 Chronicles 15:7, “But you, be strong and do not lose courage, for there is reward for your work.” Guys, we cannot be the people that fail once, twice, and give up! I’ve been learning that we need to be able to embrace our failures and discouragements. We need to embrace our imperfect, beautiful selves and seek Christ whole-heartedly. I’ve been wearing the same jeans since grade 7 and I just recently got into a fender bender with my buggy. Don’t get me wrong, I wish I had nice, new clothes for everything and I have cried over my winking car lots but…. So what? My goal on earth is not to have a bazillion friends, perfect Instagram feed, lots of followers on the blog, or hundreds of likes on my Facebook. So what? Our image shouldn’t be the most important thing to us – our legacy should be. What do people think when they hear your name? How do people feel when they see a photo of you? If someone had to describe you, using only 5 words, what would they say? Would they say you’re gentle or rough, rude or humorous, witty, sassy, harsh, stubborn, kind, loving, etc. I want to encourage you guys not to compare yourself to the next person. Don’t wish you had this or wish you could do that. Work for it, wait for it, and plan for it. Stay satisfied and content with who you are in Christ Jesus and trust that He will continue to work in your life and mould you into the beautiful, imperfect person He always intended you to be.

“Wait a second, Why should you care, / what they think of you / When you’re all alone, by yourself / Do you like you?” – Colbie Caillat, “TRY

 

– Stay Satisfied

Calming fears and clearing minds…

Ok so to bring you up to date: I moved back to Regina, Saskatchewan. I completed my Interior Design Practicum at Ambiente Interiors. I was not hired. I am currently jobless. You would think that I’d be more stressed about that last fact…. but I’m not… sooooo…? These past few months have been an absolute whirlwind! However, God speaks to us in the whisper of the wind and that has been SO incredible as I watch as God’s Hand molds my life day by day, everyday whispering, “Just watch and see what I am about to do…” I moved back to Regina at the end of April and began my internship shortly after coming home – it felt great to be working in the field that I love. Remember last summer, when I was working at the design store? I was usually on the sales floor helping clients with high end light fixtures and furniture, luxury plumbing fixtures like claw-foot bath tubs, solid marble sinks, and gold faucets, etc. My job last summer was really fun and I learned SO much. Working in the design store gave me knowledge about lighting, plumbing and furniture that I would never have gained at school. Ambiente Interiors was a completely different experience. I love, love, loved working at a design firm! Ambiente was right up my alley; a small, high end design firm that does both residential and commercial design across Alberta, Saskatchewan, and Manitoba. I worked with two other, wonderful designers and several tradesmen that were experts in their fields.

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As you know, I went to Lakeland College, which is an NKBA accredited college in Vermillion, Alberta and at the end of the two year diploma program, students must complete a practicum with a qualifying design firm anywhere in Canada in order to graduate. So, I chose to work with Ambiente and they were gracious enough to accept me. The practicum experience for me, was phenomenal. It gave me the opportunity to stretch myself and see what I could do in the real world. I was excited to be working with professionals that had experience and knowledge in the field of work that I was pursuing. It is one thing to study interior design at school: in the studio and computer labs, however, it was so much more valuable for me to enforce what I had learned at school in current projects. I was excited for the opportunities I might get to prove myself that I am capable and good enough to succeed in Interior Design. I graduated my program with honors and I am proud of that. However, it’s one thing to earn an A+ on a project in school and an entirely different task to take a real client’s project and design something they are just as excited about as you are. You know what I’m saying? I was looking forward to real clients, with real limitations, real budgets, stubborn likes and dislikes, etc. While in school, my projects usually didn’t have any limitations as a project would have in real life. So you can see why I was nervous but also ecstatic to try myself out in a real project. While working with Ambiente Interiors, my employer took me along to site measurements, design showrooms, showed me current building projects, included me in most client consultations and product representative meetings, etc. She let me draw my own designs and pitch them to clients, she allowed me to pick materials and correspond with the clients and trades-workers directly! For me, that was huge! A lot of these things were taught while I was in classes, but to experience those things gave me the opportunity to ask questions that I would not have thought of in class. For example, in class we learned how to draw details of custom cabinetry but meeting the carpenter that was going to be building my design allowed me to ask him questions that I would not have thought of and also for him to ask me questions that I hadn’t considered either. It was an awesome learning curve. 0 to 100 so fast!Graduation

One thing that I loved about my boss including me in meetings with Ambiente’s trades-workers, was seeing how the designers collaborated with the people who would be producing the work – it was eye opening to me. Carpenters, metal-workers, contractors, designers, drafters, etc. we are all designers in some way. While working in my practicum, the biggest realization was how important teamwork is between everyone working on a project and how important it is to listen to everyone on your team and to keep constant communication with everyone. Ideas from all team members were valued equally in a project, and by listening to other members on our design team, the finished product was that much better and more unique than the original design. Simply because ideas were given the opportunity to bounce off other people and grow bigger and better! Experiences like that made me think a lot about how God wants to include us and use us in our relationship with Him. It’s not about living your life in a routine and sticking to what you know is safe, it’s about going out for Christ and being willing to bounce ideas off God and see where He will take you! I think some Christians slide into this comfortable bubble and become too content to do anything extra in their walk with the Lord. You know what I’m saying? For example, In a meeting I had with my boss and our carpenter, we were going over a design I had. Personally, I thought my idea was great and that it couldn’t get any better. I drew the design, made a 3D model to show how I wanted it to work, etc. But when I brought my design to the table in the meeting, my boss and our carpenter right away started making suggestions of how we could change it. I’ll confess that I got a little irritated at first because I thought they were trying to find flaws in my design. As I sat there watching as they looked over my design and hearing what they were saying, I felt a peace in my heart to just listen to what they were saying and try to see my project from their angle. As I listened, my boss had some very good points about possible flaws in the finished product, the carpenter suggest different turning mechanisms to make the design more functionable, etc. They were making it better. Much better. I believe God wants to do the same in our lives. He wants to take us further into Him. Much further. But only if we are willing to sit back and listen. Really listen.

GraduationMy employer at Ambiente Interiors gave me several projects to work on and allowed me to run with my own ideas. This was good for me. It was encouraging to be given opportunities to show what I can do and prove to myself that I can be successful in the work field. Learning how to collaborate with other designers and tradesmen was hard at first, but it got better. After I would finish a design concept, I would present it to the other designers I worked with, and they would show me where my design was strong, and where it could be even stronger. My ideas were always considered and explored, along with everyone else’s ideas. It built my confidence in my skills and abilities to suggest more ideas and put myself out there. Working with the design team at Ambiente Interiors was a huge blessing because the designers were able to explain things that I did not know, simply because there are things a person can only learn on the job through experience. My employer was a very patient and relaxed boss to work for; she was good at keeping a situation calm and talking through problems with clients and contractors. I saw the importance of listening before acting and how consistent communication is a needed skill in the industry. It was valuable for me to watch how conversations went around the design table and it was empowering to be accepted and welcomed to contribute when sitting around the design table. I appreciate everything that I learned and I hope to one day work for Ambiente Interiors again. I think the most phenomenal thing about my experience at Ambiente Interiors, was how it fell together. My position there was completely the hand of God – no body can take credit. While I was at school, I had been researching a custom home builder that I had heard a lot about. I researched their work and their staff, I followed their projects on social media, I was sold. This was the place I wanted to work. But God had other plans. For over a month, I had tried calling this company many times, but could never get through or further than leaving a message. Not going to lie, I was confused. At the time, this company seemed to be placed on my lap by Jesus, but it took a swift turn to the left and abruptly ended and I did not know what to do. It was nearing the end of my classes and I had still not nailed down a practicum placement. After being shut down by the previous company I was pursuing, I went back to the drawing board. “God I don’t really know what to say, I thought you were lining up that one placement for me perfectly! It was honestly seeming too good to be true! I have no idea where to look or where to start…” When God closes a door, He opens a window. I believe that statement whole-heartedly. 100%. I literally punched, “Interior Design Firm Regina” into Google and Ambiente popped up. From there, God played the cards and I watched in amazement as my practicum came together in a matter of two days.

I want to challenge you guys to live boldly and to allow God to grow your dreams and ideas. You may think you’ve got a sick plan figured out, but I’m living proof that God is 100% able to do so much more than all we could ever plan or imagine. If you are willing to hold on tight and be patient, I know that God wants to do something incredible with your life. Prayer and constant communication with Christ is your ultimate weapon in the battle of the unknown. Go for it guys – my practicum was too amazing – I can’t imagine what He’s going to do this summer!

 

 

 

– Stay Satisfied

Some people told me not to go to college… look at me now…

If you would have told me two years ago that I’d move to a tiny little town, to live with a family I had never met before to jump into a program I wasn’t even sure I was good at – I probably would have looked at you, said nothing and turned on my heel to walk away. There would have been a whole lotta “nopes” from me. I’ll be the first one to admit that change and I are not BFF’s – I literally buy the identical toothbrush from Walmart every time I need a new one. However, God made it clear that I was supposed to take Him up on His offer and move to Alberta for school. At one point I had already been accepted into a design school in Vancouver; I was going to be moving back out to the coast where my girl friends are and we’d have so much fun *Happy Dance* But God was the one who had a whole lotta nopes for that plan. He made Alberta so clear – until I had people telling me that I shouldn’t be attending a “secular” college. It was weird to have this feedback from people I talked to a lot. I heard almost all of the excuses, “You’re not strong enough in your faith to attend a secular school…” “You’re going to get caught up in the drugs and party life out there.” “You don’t even know anyone going with you!” “You’re not going to have any Christian friends to keep you accountable at a secular college.”

“I am the LORD, the God of all mankind. Is anything too hard for me?”

– Jeremiah 32:27

Trust me, the list goes on. But I knew that God had already made it clear that I was to go. I remember when I first moved out to this town; it was not easy. I had to learn a new place, meet new people, understand a new program and try to make friends. But God showed me that He was with me right from the beginning: I literally had hiking trails in the backyard, I moved in with a phenomenal, God fearing family, my class was hilarious and my teachers were fabulous. Despite all of these awesome things, my heart was still longing for something familiar’ I was running through the trails and talking to God about all of these mixed emotions, “God I don’t know how I am going to get through two years of this.” Immediately He gave me a verse.

“Count it all joy, my brothers, when you meet trials of various kinds, for you know that the testing of your faith produces steadfastness.” – James 1:2-3

When God put that verse on my heart, I knew it was His way of confirming that I had not started an easy path – it would be difficult and I would get hurt. But it will be great and I will walk out stronger after! Sometimes the Lord does not guide us down paths that are lined with daisies and full of sunshine. Quite often He’ll ask us to walk places that scare us and stress us out – but those are the paths that force us to seek Him. Those are the paths that strengthen you. I want to thank the people that discouraged me to take the path I did; the people that said I wouldn’t survive a college life. I knew the road would not be easy but what was meant to discourage me; God meant it for good. {Genesis 50:20}

Guys – as Children of God, we CANNOT stay in a Christian bubble. I don’t care how comfortable you are or how scary you may think it is to be out in the “big bad world”. The Lord did NOT give you grace so that you could keep it to yourself. As people that have been born again into God’s forgiveness, He commanded us in Mark 16:15, “”Go into all the world and preach the Good News to everyone.” When God reveals something to you, it is meant to be shared and passed on! Not kept to yourself where it won’t continue to encourage others! We cannot hide in a Christian bubble and expect to make an impact on the world for the Lord’s kingdom.While at a “secular”, “non-Christian” school, God has given me countless opportunities to be a witness for Him. There were times where God was able to use me and there were other times where God had to teach me. I did not hit the mark every time. But I do not want to meet God one day and be like the servant that did nothing with their talents. Matthew 25:15-27, “To one servant, the Master gave five talents, to another servant, two talents, to another servant a single talent; each according to his ability. Then the Master went away. The servant who had received the five talents went at once and traded with them, and he made five talents more. The servant who had the two talents made two talents more. But the servant who had received the one talent, went and dug in the ground and hid his master’s money. Now after a long time the master of those servants came and settled accounts with them. The servant who had received the five talents came forward, bringing five talents more, saying, ‘Master, you delivered to me five talents; here I have made five talents more.’ His master said to him, ‘Well done, good and faithful servant. You have been faithful over a little; I will set you over much. Enter into the joy of your master.’ And the servant who had the two talents came forward, saying, ‘Master, you delivered to me two talents; here I have made two talents more.’ His master said to him, ‘Well done, good and faithful servant. You have been faithful over a little; I will set you over much. Enter into the joy of your master.’ The servant who had received the one talent came forward, saying, ‘Master, I knew you to be a hard man, reaping where you did not sow, and gathering where you scattered no seed, so I was afraid, and I went and hid your talent in the ground. Here you have what is yours.’ But his master answered him, “Then you ought to have invested my money with the bankers, and at my coming I should have received what was my own with interest.” Guys, I don’t want to be that last servant – and neither do you!

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I believe that God will finish what He calls you to. I know this because me graduating from a “secular” college is proof of that. A lot of people told me that my faith was not strong enough to make it through college. I’ve got news for you: God’s strength is our measuring stick – not our own strength. If anything, having a “weak faith” and STILL coming out hand in hand with my savior Jesus, gives Him even more glory. Psalm 46:1, “God is our refuge and strength”. I believe that we don’t need to survive on our own strength. A lot of people questioned whether or not I’d have accountability. I believe that my accountability comes from everyone around me – not just from Christians. Matthew 5:16, “Let your light shine before others, so that they may see Jesus in you and give glory to your Father who is in heaven.” In fact, by being with people that don’t know about Jesus, I was kept more accountable because no one was correcting me. We have to keep our hearts in tune with Jesus to decipher between more than 50 shades of grey; to know what’s black and what’s white. Allow the Bible – God’s Word to be your accountability partner! Listen, Spring is a season of change (obviously my least favorite). I wanna ask you, is God giving you an opportunity to be a light for Him? Is there a crew of friends that don’t know the Lord that you could be spending time with and sharing Christ’s love? Are you praying for those around you? Are you diving into a new job or spring/ summer classes that you’ll be surrounded by people that might not know Jesus? I’m not suggesting that you run into these opportunities with New Testaments to shove down people’s throats – I’m saying be a light; be a witness. Let those people see by your actions who Christ is! And if they can’t see Jesus in you… then you’ve got bigger questions you need to ask yourself… Are you running away from opportunities to share God with others? Are you too scared to “stain” your “oh-so-pure-self”? A friend gave me a quote the other day, he said, “Light can only pass through what is transparent and what is cracked. God is the Light in us. We are to live our lives transparently and when we mess up and crack, people should be able to see Jesus shining through it.” Guys, we are not perfect. As Children of God, we are going to mess up because we are 100% human. But I want to encourage you to go. To go out and be a light for Christ. Don’t bury your talents and be like the third servant. I want Jesus to be able to say, “Well done – Good and FAITHFUL Servant” when we all get there. Last weekend I was praying with a friend; I was telling her some of my struggles and concerns about finishing school and she gave me a verse.

“Count it all joy, my brothers, when you meet trials of various kinds, for you know that the testing of your faith produces steadfastness.” – James 1:2-3

God finished this journey exactly how He started it two years ago. That struck a chord with me. I think God was reminding me about how far He has brought me. Reminding me to remember the past because He has brought me where I currently am; but to look forward to the future knowing that He will meet me there and take me further.

 

 

– Stay Satisfied

 

 

So you’re not quite where you thought you’d be…

When you were little, you imagined yourself living in a mansion, with a Porsche, and a smokin hot spouse, making six digits in your dream career. No? Maybe you thought you’d marry a babe and move into the mountains and forests and explore the world; spending everything you had on the next adventure. Or maybe you’re one of those people that just wanna settle down with your hotty-Mchotty and have babies. I remember being ten years old and sitting around the kitchen table with my cousins, sipping chocolate milk and eating cheese puffs (don’t question the flavour combination) We would sit and talk with each other about what we thought we’d be doing when we were adults… “Yeah, I’ll probably go to school, graduate and make loads of cash right after that.” I remember saying confidently. “Oh yeah? What are you gunna drive?” my brother quizzed. “Psh! The car I’m gunna drive isn’t even made yet!” My cousin would blurt; spitting chewed cheese puffs everywhere. My other cousins claimed other life goals like getting married at 16 or having two wives cause he”just couldn’t pick” you know, the super realistic things. Anyways, obviously we look back and laugh at most – if not all of those options because none of us are anywhere near those goals. Truth be told, our plans are often quite different than what the Lord has up His sleeve. The things we long for, plan and try to do in our life don’t always line up with what God has in store for us.

“A man’s steps are directed by the Lord. How then can anyone understand his own way?” {Proverbs 20:24}

So, maybe you’re not quite where you thought you would be in life at this time. Maybe you don’t have the job title you’ve been striving for and you aren’t even close to making six digits… you may not even know what you want to be doing as a career! Or maybe you feel like you’ve been a student for centuries; you keep switching your major or starting classes and realizing that it’s not your forte so you drop them. At this point, maybe you feel like people are now making six digits off you from all the money you’ve been spending on classes, books, tutors, campus parking tickets and materials. Perhaps you aren’t married to a hot spouse with a couple beautiful children living in that awesome home with a cute backyard and a swing-set? Maybe you are currently dating someone and the relationship between you guys is simply coasting; nothing’s happening and it doesn’t really seem to be going anywhere. Or what if you have been trying to get with someone and they are tooootally missing the hints and everything is going over their head… On the other hand, you could be single right now and are possibly waiting to cross paths with another single babe. Who knows.

CowWhat ever you seem to be focusing on right now; whether it is a relationship, a job or career, classes or lessons or something else, I want you to put it in a mental box for a moment and listen to me. Don’t worry, we’ll come back to it. God tells us multiple times in His Word that we are to do everything in order to bring glory to Him. Seriously, 1 Corinthians 10: 31 says, “Whether then, you eat or drink or whatever you do, do all to the glory of God.” In Colossians 3:17 we are told, “Whatever you do in word or deed, do all in the name of the Lord Jesus, giving thanks through Him to God the Father.” and again in Colossians 3:23, “Whatever you do, do your work heartily, as for the Lord rather than for men.” Right now, if you let yourself think about it, you probably have a lot of free time right now because you don’t have that thing you are working towards. I mean, once you get that thing, you’ll probably be really busy spending time with it, correct? If you get the job; you’ll be working harder to keep the job and hopefully move up the ranks. If you get the man or the girl, you’ll be wanting to spend a lot of time with him or her and potentially put a ring on it. Etc. It literally never stops – there is ALWAYS going to be something else that we are working towards. That’s just the way people work and operate. So hypothetically speaking, right now you most likely have the most time you ever will in your life. Don’t waste it. Don’t squander it. Do not try to fill the time with things that are of no value. Why don’t you use it for things that will be of value in the future? Earthly and Spiritually. How about developing yourself in different areas of your life? Perhaps that means learning new skills, developing new talents or improving a gift you already have. Or it could be other practical things like learning to cook or clean, reading more and watching less T.V. or doing more physical activities and working out? The self development list is one that could honestly go on and on… Why not build healthy friendships and see where they may go in time? Why not slowly learn in your work place and get a good handle on the job and get to know the people you work with? Why not spend time volunteering at your church and helping the people in the community around you? Why not spend more time hanging out with your family? I would encourage you to make a list; not a list of what you want your life to look like in the next five years or what qualities you want your life partner to have. A list of who YOU want to be and what you should be striving for in your own life. It doesn’t have to be long or complicated but I know there are qualities and characteristics we’ve always admired in other people and wished we were better at. Why not start working towards those qualities and characteristics? Instead of wishing you were good at the guitar, why don’t you pick it up and start working towards that wish? Instead of people telling you that you’re impatient, why not work in that area of your life? See what I’m saying?

Lake Edge  We need to learn to be content in each and every point of our lives. Don’t get me wrong, I know there are difficult times in life just as much – if not more than there are joyous times. Often I’ve been asked during a hard point in life, “Well, what do you think God is trying to teach you through this?” or even, “What did you do wrong for God to allow that to happen to you?” People… I’m only gunna say this once. Not everything that happens in a person’s life is punishment, or a lesson, or a mystical map to the key of happiness. Sometimes things just, happen. No rhyme or reason. You see, joblessness, singleness, homelessness or whatever “ness” you seem to be struggling with right now has happened to other people in this world and will continue to occur as long as time continues. What we need to be focusing on in those blessings and hardships is Christ and Christ alone. We also need to realize that all those things aren’t necessarily bad things at all!

“So we fix our eyes not on what is seen, but on what is unseen. For what is seen is temporary, but what is unseen is eternal.” {2 Corinthians 4:18}

I want to encourage you right now to fully embrace what is going on in your life. Maybe it’s a successful moment in your schooling or career – celebrate it! Or on the other hand maybe you are lonely and it feels like the number of people you can truly confide in are walking out the door left, right and center. Whether it be a good thing or a bad thing right now; you need to fully embrace it with The Lord. god’s promised us in His word, “He has not left me alone” – John 8:29. I believe that everything that comes our way in life is to make us stronger as a person but more importantly, it is to make us stronger in our relationship with God and to bring us closer to Him. Every scenario is meant to bring glory to Him. “For it is God who is at work in you, both to will and to work for His good pleasure.” – Philippians 2:13. I know when I am going through something significant that stops me in my tracks, I have to pause and ask God what’s up. Sometimes He’ll tell me “Oh nothing Payton, keep going. I am with you.” Yet other times God says to me, “You handled that really bad. You need to fix it and ask me to work in this area of your life.” Sure, there are always life lessons in everything that happens in life. I won’t deny that. But I want you to know and understand that just because you aren’t where you thought you’d be in life RIGHT NOW, means that it’s because you’ve done something wrong or because God is punishing you. Often God withholds things in our life because He is refining them to make sure the situation will be good in His perfect and holy timing. Accept that.

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I want to encourage you guys to love life, to appreciate the small good things that God has blessed us with and to stop and praise Him in the difficult moments. Both of these things bring us closer to God. Both allow us to grow as a person. Both are just as much a part of life as the other. A friend shot me a text the other day; it was a hard day and I was struggling. I told him a couple of the things that were going on and he simply said to me, “You know, it’s normal to have ups and downs… Hang in there, Jesus is the ultimate comforter!” It wasn’t profound or earth shattering but it made me stop in the middle of what I was doing. It’s ok to be in a low time. It’s ok to not know or have your life planned out. It’s ok not to have your life completly figured out. It’s ok. I was so thankful for God to speak through my friend the way He did and tell me that it’s alright. I know that it’s ok for me and it most definitely is ok for you too. On a side note; I think we need to remember that we cannot compare our lives to the lives of others. You can’t compare your low moments to someone else’s Facebook timeline because people only post their highlights. You cannot think another person has a perfect life because their Instagram account portrays a beautiful life. Rarely do people showcase their imperfections, bad qualities and hard times. It’s the social media game that we need to be aware of. Keep your chin up and hang in there. He’ll bring you through whatever valley you might be in and God will celebrate with you on each and every high point you reach. Guaranteed. Keep your eyes off others and the things around you and solely focus on Him who can actually improve the situation.

 

 

 

 

– Stay Satisfied

I’ve jumped into a trust fall….. again…

It’s been an eventful month. I have a lot to fill you in on. Soooooo grab coffee and put on comfy pants, because those are important. Recently, I moved back to Alberta for school and I feel like my brain has been oozing outta my left ear. This past week I’ve constantly been relating myself to where I was this time of year, last year. Do you ever do that? Think to yourself, “Huh, this time last year I was {insert whatever you were doing}” I realized that I do that… like a lot… I’ve realized that this is the first time in years where I’m returning to something. I’m going somewhere I’ve been and where I know people and have friends. That hasn’t happened in a long time. Years ago I moved to British Columbia for bible school for a year. After that, I moved back to Saskatchewan for a year. Then I moved to Alberta to start more school. This year I’m moving back to Alberta. Don’t get me wrong – I love moving around and experiencing new things. I especially enjoy moving somewhere for a decent amount of time where I can actually meet friends and experience life. The only “problem” with that, was that I ended up making friends in every direction across the country and very few of them actually life close to me. So, to say the least, I am ecstatic to be returning to people and places that I enjoy! Although, now that I’m thinking about it; sometimes I think God allows us to go through a bit of a gong show to test us and see if we will chose to trust Him and sit back to watch Him drive.

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I don’t know about you, but I like to do things. I love being busy and I adore having a list and a schedule – especially when it’s all in a cute day planner *wink* However, there are a lot of things that recently happened that I did not write in my day planner and would have rather tried to avoid entirely! They may not be as drastic as moving away or diving in to school, or starting a new job, or whatever, but they are the things that I believe God threw into my path to see how I’ll handle it. I’ll be the first one to confess that I’m usually the first person to go deer-in-the-head-lights and pull out my hair…. It may seem weird to make this comparison, but I think about the Joker in Batman: Dark Night. The Joker is talking to Harvey Dent; currently in the hospital. Harvey is angry at the Joker because of his “plan”. The Joker then begins to explain to Harvey that he doesn’t have plans. He just, does things, to well.. more or less, screw up the plans that others make. The Joker then begins to point out people that do have plans; the government, the police, etc. “You know what I noticed?” the Joker started, “No body panics when things go “according to plan” – even if the plan is horrifying! If tomorrow I said that something bad was going to happen; and it happens the next day, no one panics because “it was all according to the plan”. They knew it was going to happen.” That scene made me think about my life a lot. I am a planner. A massive planner. Not meaning I like to organize events, but I always like to know what is coming down the pipe. I hate surprises for that reason alone. Surprises are not in my plan, therefore I freak out. I know, it’s weird and unfortunate but I have TRIED to enjoy surprises and I can’t. I literally fake it until I make it. Anyways, when I thought about what the Joker said, I realized that this is the first time in years where I am returning to a familiar place. I know what to expect. I remember coaching myself on the drive back to Alberta, telling myself that this is going to be an awesome year because I already know the plan. It wasn’t until about a week ago when I finally noticed God tapping me on the shoulder. “Hey. Hey! Remember where you were this time last year?” God asked me. “Yeah, I was loving life and going to school for interior design!” “No, no, like, exactly this time last year.” I started thinking. This time last year, the last few weeks of summer were so hard because I had to say goodbye to so many wonderful friends. The first few weeks of September were incredibly difficult because I began to realize how lonely I was. This time last year I was depending on the Lord WAY more than I currently am. “Oh…” I started to think. “Yeeaaahhhh…” God replied.

Sunflower 2“Payton, I know you are excited about this year. I am happy that you are looking forward to returning to Alberta instead of jumping into a new pond like you have the past three years. But I’m not happy about your heart right now. You feel like you know the drill. You know you have friends here. You know you enjoy school. You know you have a great relationship with your teachers. You know you are going back to live with a wonderful family in a place you can truly call home. It’s because of all those things that you are not trusting Me with all your heart. It is because you think you don’t have to trust me about those things this year that you are leaning on your own understanding. You need to keep acknowledging ME in all things so that I can keep leading you. It was quite the tap on the shoulder. I don’t think I could ever express my life exactly a year ago to you. 365 days ago, I was once again moving somewhere I didn’t know. I was again going to be spending a lot of time with a lot of people I hadn’t met before. I didn’t know what the plan was. Que panic attack. Last year, was one of the biggest growing years in my relationship with my Saviour. I knew that God had called me to go to Alberta for interior design. I had no idea why or what it would be used for in the future but God asked me to simply trust Him with that year. So I began praying for someone that I could confide in. I remember praying, “God, I know that you are always with me. I know you understand me and that you care about me. You know my need for companionship and my desire to have a friend I can spend time with. Please send someone my way when I am in Alberta. Please bring a girl along that I can talk to and listen to, someone who I want to spend time with and someone that wants to spend time with me.” Then God gave me a vision. K, let me say first, that I’m not all into the weird signs, visions and dreams kinda thing. I usually think those things are a bit…. ummmm…. phoney and for show. You know? Where people act all “super spiritual” and whatnot, but this, for the first time in my life, I knew was a vision from the Lord. I knew God gave me a vision because it was a simple picture as an answer to what I had just prayed. In my vision, I saw a canyon; giant red rock that stretched high into the sky where a bright sun was blaring and where there were no clouds to provide shade. Running through the middle of  the canyon was a river. In a matter of minutes the river shrank and became a trickle then dried up. I saw a man sitting to the side. He was alone and sat against a rock and looked into the sky. As he looked, two ravens appeared; approached him and then flew away. I sat in my room and cried.

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I cried because I knew the man was Elijah. Most of the people that know me, know that Elijah is my all time favorite bible character. I love him because he was real with God. He was sassy and failed a lot. Elijah was far from perfect, but he was extremely close with God. Ever since I was little, I’ve always asked God to give me a life like Elijah. Anyways, I knew that the image God gave me was directly from His Word in 1 Kings chapter 17. In verse 7 it says that the brook dried up because there was no rain in the land. Prior to my first year of school, I felt the Lord had strengthen me in Him and helped me dig my roots deeper in Him. “Go away from here and live by the brook” God told Elijah. I knew that God was calling me to a new place just like God was calling Elijah. I understood that God had given me a summer to soak in as much as I could because I was going to be entering a drought. I had people all summer encouraging me and pushing me forward in my relationship with God and now I would be entering another place where I would not have those people to encourage me and push me. Verse 6 however, says that ravens brought Elijah food. I thought my “ravens” could possibly be my friends from home who could encourage me and push me to continue trusting the Lord, despite the long distance. My ravens could fly in and fly out – just like Elijah’s. I was encouraged and extremely discouraged at the same time. “God, you know I admire Elijah and his relationship with you, but is this really necessary?”

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“Peace I leave with you; My peace I give to you. I do not give as the world gives. Do not let your heart be troubled and do not be afraid.” – John 14:27

“Payton, did I leave Elijah by the river?” “…no” “No, I didn’t,” God said, “and I’m not going to leave you either. Trust Me; you have no idea what I’m going to do through you and you can’t imagine all the things you are going to learn; about yourself, in school, from others, but most importantly, from Me.” It wasn’t until a week or two later that I finally told God, “Ok. I know I need you. I’m so scared to face this year alone God. I’m terrified at the thought of sitting by that stream by myself, but I know that if this is what you have for me, I can’t stop it from happening but I also know that it will be good. I am ok to walk this year alone with you. I am ok to be alone. Please give me the courage to continue trusting you.” As the weeks went by in my first year of Interior Design school, I found the ravens that God had blessed me with. It wasn’t until after I submitted what I wanted to God that He sent two incredible girls into my life. Just like He sent ravens to help Elijah when he needed them. It was like the flick of a coin; I had to give up what I wanted before God gave Me what He was saving for me. You ladies have no idea how much of an answer to prayer you are in my life. Even now, while I’m thinking about it. That was never apart of my plan. It was apart of God’s plan. I always freak out when things don’t go according to MY plan – even though God’s plan is 100% better than anything we could ever come up with. He simply chooses to go about it in different ways. Guys, I want to encourage you and challenge you to put down the day planner and leave your schedule blank before the Lord. I challenge you to also give up what you’ve been wanting for so long. Be ok to accept what God has said and trust that He has something better than what you have written in your “day planner”. I had no idea that my last year would be so amazing, but it only got good when I put down my own will. God is only going to work for you when you stop working so hard for yourself. There is this one passage in Ephesians 3:20 & 21 that gets me excited, “Now to Him who is able to do far more than you could ever imagine or guess or request in your wildest dreams, according to the power that works within us, to God be the glory forever and ever.” This week God tapped me on the shoulder and pointed out that I haven’t quite been trusting Him with everything. I’m excited for all that He has in store for me this year. Who knows what I’ll do, or who I’ll meet or where I’ll go. I know that I need to continue trusting Him in all areas of my life and seek him in all things that come up! You haven’t got a clue where God will take you, or who He’ll introduce you to or what He will allow to cross your path. Even though we don’t know what God has scheduled in His day planner, I can guarantee you one thing – it’ll be incredible and no one could have predicted it! Go after it like gold!

 

 

 

– Stay Satisfied

It turns out, it really is that simple…

I could tell you all the reasons why I haven’t posted in a while… but to put it bluntly; I didn’t want to because I wanted to see God expand on what I wanted to tell you. For about two weeks now I’ve wanted to blog about putting on a metaphoric blind fold and forcing myself to trust God with 100% of the things I struggle with. Whether it be anxiety, stress, control freak issues, you name it; work, school, friends family and dumb drama – we both know those lists could go on for miles. Every time I set aside an evening to write to you, God told me to wait. “God, why on earth would I wait; this is the first Thursday evening in months that I’ve had free – I could have the post up before the weekend for people… like when I first started blogging..” *cough cough* “I’m still writing” is how God answered me. Well alrighty then! I’ll write when your done.. just sharpen the pencil for me when it’s my turn *wink* As always, I hope you’ve just put on a pot on coffee or started a full kettle; because reading is always better with a warm drink, let’s get real. I literally took pictures of devotional pages, Bible verses, quotes, etc. of things that continually popped up that God was stringing together for one mega message. Forest Bridge

Now, recently, I’ve been really frustrated at myself. I have been kicking myself because I am constantly comparing my abilities to the people around me and continually beating myself up about why I’m not as good as the next person. I know I’m one of the only people on the face of the earth with this issue.. but bear with me.. It was a gross cycle. One example was with work. Everyday I would go to work, and everyday at work I would compare myself to the people I was working with. “Why are they so confident?” “How can they do this so accurately and smoothly every time?” “I wish I knew what to say in those situations like they do.” Etc, etc. Everyday I would leave work feeling defeated – even if it was a fun day! I didn’t get it. On complete opposite occasions, I would go home feeling the same way. Days when I helped clients, sold stuff and laughed with people vs. days when I literally asked for help with every question that came my way, didn’t sell anything and forgot my laugh box at home in my bed. I would go home feeling defeated and discouraged. On my drives back to the house I would find something negative to focus on. BUT WHY?! For whatever reason, it’s been incredibly difficult for me to focus on the happy and positive things in my day. This went on for what felt like decades. Each hour felt like a day, a day felt like a week and a week felt like a year. I dreaded waking up in the morning. The more I compared myself the more I felt like I could get it right. “Oh, so and so does this and it works. So I’ll just do that too and I’ll start to succeed.” Pure logic right? Mmmm no. I started feeling worse because I realized more and more that I wasn’t catching up or keeping up. It wasn’t until my boss stopped me before going home one night and asked what was up, “Dude, I’ve noticed you’re just off lately. What’s up?” I did not want to tell my boss what the deal was… “You don’t have to talk to me about it if you don’t want to – I get that, but know I’m always here to chat if you need to get it out. I’ve been feeling that you’re not doing 100% though and I just wanted to ask..” I then started to tell him how I’ve been frustrated with myself. Frustrated with myself at work, with friends, with family, and with myself in general. Feeling, not good enough. He just looked at me and listened. After I finished he put it bluntly, “K, first of all, you’re not perfect. You’re not gunna hit every ball outta the park. So stop thinking you can. There’s your first issue. Second, why do you think you need to be hitting home runs 100% of the time? You are actually pulling your hair out over nothing.” “I know,” I tried to

Babe Ruth; New York Yankees

Babe Ruth; New York Yankees

explain, “it’s just when I see you and everyone else I think I should be doing better..” He cut me off, “You cannot and should not be comparing yourself to anyone. You can’t roll that way. Do you know who Babe Ruth was? Babe Ruth was an amazing baseball player. On paper; he was phenomenal, in person he was a slobby pig that had one of the worst athletic forms in baseball. But he was amazing. Babe Ruth did not compare himself to other baseball players; he had his own swing that he found and made work for him. Anybody else looking at the guy saw his bad form, unhealthy body, etc. but they also saw his stats. You need to stop focusing on how others see you. Who cares if you have to ask questions all the time – you’re learning. Who cares if you don’t make a sale – you gave them information. If you get ten balls thrown at you and hit three outta the park but miss the other seven; you need to focus on those three home runs – not the seven outs! And that goes for anything in life. Be it people in your life, responsibilities, hobbies, whatever. As long as you are doing your best you can, you need to celebrate in the little victories. And, I’ll let you now that you have your own, very unique swing that is working for you! I’ve seen it, the others have seen it. You’re doing fine and you’ve hardly been here.” I was stunned. Sometimes I feel like my boss hardly knows me and other times I feel like we’ve grown up together. As I got in my car to drive home I felt God continue what my boss was talking about. “Payton, you’ve been allowing the devil to cloud your mind with undeserved stress, guilt and anxiety. You can do all things through Me because I give you strength. Anything that doesn’t happen wasn’t meant to happen. I know you’ve been discouraged thinking you’re not good enough for the people around you but you need to stop thinking that way and start thinking about how you can be My light for them. How can you show Christ’s love to them instead of your own love?”

CokeThe next morning I cracked open my devotional book and could’ve laughed about how bang on it was, “Do not bring performance pressures into our sacred space of communion. Stop worrying long enough to hear My voice. I speak softly to you, in the depths of your being. Your mind shuttles back and forth weaving webs of anxious confusion. As My thoughts rise up within you, they become entangled in those sticky strings of worry. Ask My Spirit to quiet your mind so that you can think My thoughts. This ability is an awesome benefit of being My Child, pattern after My own image. Do not be deafened by the noise of the world or that of your own thinking. Instead, be transformed by the renewing of your mind. Sit quietly in My presence, focusing on Me instead of the things going on around you.” God also reminded me that morning that I was not fully committing the day to Him. In the mornings I would think and stress about how I would try my best to do well that day. I would strain my mind to think about how I should’ve done or what I didn’t do and how I failed instead of relaxing to see what I accomplished. God pointed out, that when I am spending time with Him, I’m constantly asking Him to help me at work; to do well and to meet the “standards” of the people I’m working with. I’m not supposed to be burning my time with God like that!

“When the Lord makes it clear you’re to follow Him in this new direction, focus fully on Him and refuse to be distracted by comparisons with others.” – Charles R. Swindoll

Day 2: “Keep walking with Me along the path I have chosen for you. Your desire to live close to Me is a delight to My heart. I could instantly grant you the spiritual riches you desire, but that is not My way for you. Together, we will forge a pathway up the high mountain. The journey is difficult at times, and you are weak. Someday you will dance light footed in the high peaks; but for now, your walk is often plodding and heavy. All I require of you is to take the next step; clinging to My hand for strength and direction. Though the path is hard and scenery is dull at times, there are sparkling surprises just around the bend. Stay on the path I have selected for you.” I felt that once again God was nudging me to first of all, set my eyes on Him. Second, to focus on my accomplishments through His strength and third, to dismiss the discouragements the devil was waving in front of my face. God then gave me Psalm 37:23 & 24, “If the Lord delights in a man’s way, he makes his steps firm; though he may trip, he won’t fall, for the Lord holds his hand.” No matter how many times I strike out, I need to look at my home runs because that is what God has allowed me to accomplish. As this week went on it felt like every day God was giving me more rope to climb out of the pit of discouragement. You know when you’re out on a hike and you come to the last and biggest section? It’s steep and thick, but you know the top is going to be marvelous? When you start working your way to the top; you have a strange, new sense of energy – because you know this is the last one before you get to enjoy the rewards at the top. That’s honestly the best way to describe my week. Every day that went past, God gave me strength in the morning and helped me to take joy in what we did that day. The next day God gave me another boost. Like on Mario Kart when you drive over the rainbow patches! “I want you to experience the riches of your salvation: the joy of being loved constantly and perfectly. You make a practice of judging yourself, based on how you look or behave or feel. If you like what you see in the mirror, you feel a bit more worthy of My love. When things are going smoothly and your performance seems adequate, you find it easier to believe you are My beloved Child. When you feel discouraged, you tend to look inward so you can correct whatever is wrong.” Instead of trying to “fix” yourself, fix your gaze on Me, the Lover of your soul. Rather than using your energy to judge yourself, redirect it to praising Me. Remember that I see you clothed n My righteousness, radiant in My perfect love.” That is exactly what I needed before work. In that moment, I felt that God totally showed me that He knows exactly how I feel and how I have been struggling. For Him to speak directly to my heart and say hey, I know you think that you have to be doing well in order for Me – or anyone to love you, but it’s ok, I’m going to love you and will always love you anyways. I’ve felt that if I drop the ball on someone I don’t deserve to be loved by them. When I’m sharing this now, I realize how dumb that is because I would never treat someone else that way if roles were reversed. For example, the other day I had planned to skype a good friend of mine in the evening, but consultations at work ran unexpectedly late and I got home three hours after we planned to skype. I felt like I dropped the ball on her. In that moment I felt like I had failed as a friend. God then told me that He has placed people in my life that will love me despite my failures just like I love people despite their short comings. It is not about who deserves who’s love and friendship or even how much of a friend to be – we all help each other to be stronger in Christ.

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As each day past, each day got better than the previous. God helped me to be constantly looking to Him all through out my day. To shoot up those mini prayers and commit moments and people to Him. To give me knowledge and humility, humor and grace. At the end of the day my boss came up to me, “You’ve been killing it these past few days! You’re doing better?” I smiled, yeah, I’ve been doing a lot better.. “well it’s showing, not specifically saying sales or work wise, but your atmosphere is more positive. Way to be Rockstar.” My boss and I went on a couple consultations that day and we were able to talk about asking for God’s help but also being willing to act. If you want change you have to be willing to change and to search it out. You can’t simply wait around for something to magically appear on your lap. About a week ago (que dance moves) I was dreading getting out of bed and attempting to do things. But God sought me out and changed my attitude and helped me to want to change. I knew I didn’t want to keep that attitude. I love life. This is common knowledge to anyone that knows me – or has ever met me, really.  You have to be willing to do something. I had to constantly be adjusting my sight on the Lord through out my day. At some points, I was praying every fifteen minutes to give my anxiety to God and to ask for His help. It got to the point where I prayed before I talked to every client I encountered that day, because I knew I needed His strength to help them. I think that was one of the most encouraging parts though, knowing that God was there listening and ready for me every time I spoke to Him. It wasn’t my own knowledge, it wasn’t fluke; it was God giving me answers, allowing my boss and manager to “pop up” at the right times to conveniently answer questions. Once again, God gave me a Psalm, “Why are you in despair, o my soul? And why have you become disturbed within me? Hope in God, for I shall again praise Him for the help of His presence.”(62:8}

“Therefore do not worry about {each moment} , for {each moment} will worry about itself. Each {moment} has enough trouble of its own.” – Matthew 6:34

“Payton, I heard your heart and I knew you were sad. I reached out to you and you grabbed My hand. While you focus on trusting Me, I will gently pull you up and clean you off. I have said in My Word, “I did this so that you would seek Me and perhaps reach out to Me and find Me; though I have never been far from you. For in Me you live and move.. {Acts 17:27 & 28} Keep reaching out to Me and relying on Me and I will continue holding you and guiding you.” Hebrews 11:1, “Now faith is the assurance of the things we hope for, being the proof of things we do not see and the conviction of their reality.” Guys, I want to encourage you to reach out. Reach out to those around you to encourage them and to push them to keep going. You have no idea the impact you can have on someone else’s life. More importantly, reach out to God because He is always watching you and ready to jump in and help you. I was struggling with my self confidence, work, and the people around me; but not only allowing but asking God to step in has given me a new joy, a new confidence and a new love for all those things. Stop putting it off like I was. Stop waiting around allowing things to get worse and letting your heart slip into a depressing state. Be ok to accept help and be willing to change. I wish I could stress that more, it’s kinda hard over the internet.. Going home is not an option, we can only go hard.

 

 

 

– Stay Satisfied

 

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I wanted to say thank you by the way, thanks for staying with me, and for praying for me and even just showing you care by reading 🙂 It means a lot to me, knowing that I have people out there that care about my life and what’s going on! Know that I care about you too and I’m praying for you always!