It’s a game of Risk, really…

My brain is oozing outta my left ear… I’m equally frustrated and amused with how God works. I’ve had this thing  that I REALLY want to share with you guys. God really spoke to me last week about getting back to the basics. To not just read my Bible, but to understand it and learn from it. To not  just pray but be consistent in my conversations with The Lord. Back to the basics. Not gunna lie, I attempted writing that post at least four times? Maybe more? Two pots of coffee? I dunno… anyways… I kept getting frustrated with myself, because I KNEW what I wanted to share with you guys and how God had been working in my life, but it was like, I just could NOT get those freaking words onto paper. It was as if my highly complex, scattered and disorganized brain decided to play hide and seek with my writing inspiration….please tell me that you’ve had those brain blank moments…. that’d make me feel better…

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Last week I wrote, and deleted, wrote again and deleted again… wrote some more and deleted some more… and then I gave up. Today, I cleared my schedule to write about getting back to the basics and I feel like God was actually laughing at me this afternoon. “She just doesn’t get it!!” I can imagine God eating popcorn and laughing with the angels as I try again and again until what He was trying to teach me finally clicked. I read through my devotional, “You tend to make mental checklists of things you need to do to gain control of your life. If only you could check everything off your list, you could relax and be at peace. But the more you work to accomplish that goal, the more things crop up on your list. The harder you try, the more frustrated you become.”  Scale that down a bit to me, trying to write that blog post. I mentally will have a checklist of points that I want to hit, Bible verses I want to include and situations that happened that showed me what God was teaching me or talking to me about. I’ve been restless about this post. Why won’t it come together? What was that quote that made me realize that thing? Etc. And, obviously, I’ve gotten irritated about it. The best way to describe it, is that I am a SIMS character and God cancelled my action and I’m still trying to figure out what on earth I was supposed to do?!?! “There is a better way to find security in this life…” my devotional continued, “Instead of scrutinizing your checklist, focus your attention on My Presence with you. This continual contact with Me will keep you in My Peace. Moreover, I will help you sort out what is important and what is not, what needs to be done now and what does not.”

“So we fix our eyes not on what is seen, but on what is unseen. For what is seen is temporary, but what is unseen is eternal.” – 2 Corinthians 4:18

It got me thinking a lot. Thinking about all the things that I try to do outta my own strength and on my own. I have no doubt that God will bring to mind what He wants me to say about getting back to the basics… but He’ll give me the words when I’m not working out of my own strength and when I surrender the situation to Him. Do you ever get that? You try over and over to do something but it just doesn’t seem to pull through? Like, no rhyme or reason, it just doesn’t? Maybe it’s a client you’re working with – they just never seem to make up their mind. A co worker who can’t seem to accomplish that “simple” task. Or maybe it’s a project you’ve got going that won’t pan out the way you want it to. Oooooooooorrrrr a blog post that you can’t seem to get the words out for? We’ve all got those “things” that we literally, just have to walk away from.

For now, I’m gunna encourage you to walk away, cause that’s what God’s putting on my heart. Life isn’t something that you always have to take by force. It actually makes me think of King David, well, before he was technically king. Right now I’m reading in 1 Samuel; in chapter 10 Saul is anointed as king but shortly after, in chapter 16, David is anointed as king; verse 13, “Then Samuel took the horn of oil and anointed him in the midst of his brothers; and the Spirit of The Lord came mightily upon David from that day forward.” David was rightly anointed king over Israel by Samuel but he didn’t take the throne until it was God’s timing. I’m not kidding, David didn’t actually take over the Israelites until 2 Samuel 5! “…they anointed David {again} king over Israel. David was thirty years old when he became king, and he reigned forty years.” (2 Sam. 5:3-4) God has specific things in store for each and every one of us but sometimes God is asking us to wait and other times God asks us to act. Think of it like the game of Risk. You need to come up with a game plan; sometimes you need to act fast while your opponents are weak and other times to need to wait before you attack in order to win the game! But if you are on a losing streak and all of your rolls are not working out – your losing men left and right, it’s in your best interest to stop attacking. Am I right? I’m in the same boat right now; I’m waiting for my writers block to…un..block. I know it’s a much smaller scale than a job promotion or getting into a university or college but know that it’s ok to sit back and wait to see how the chips fall. It’s perfectly fine to not know and focus on The Lord in that time of waiting. The other day, I was talking to my brother about the whole waiting game and he told me that in one of the sermons he was listening to, the pastor said, “When you’re waiting, you need to be running after God. Always, always striving after Him. Every now and then we can look up and maybe we see a person that catches our eye, or maybe it’s a career or a new car, house; whatever! Put your head down and keep running after God. Then look back up and see if it’s still there. If it is….. put your head down and keep on runnin. If this person, career, car, house or whatever, is what God has for you – you’ll meet up with it in God’s timing. Don’t worry, you’ll definitely cross paths.” So on that note: I’m going to keep running, continue striving and wait until that blog post comes to me, hopefully when it does… it’ll be a encouragement to write and read!

 

 

– Stay Satisfied

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